an exquisitely ugly dream

this is my search for perfection, control and acceptance both from others and myself. i wouldn't label myself as anything just lost in a world filled with fading dreams. this blog is my escape from reality into my own reality, a place i can stay motivated and remember what it is im working towards

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→ 29 May 12 at 4 pm
tags: personal  prozac nation 
just watched prozac nation

such an inspiring film/hated how much i could relate/feels like its all leading up to me seeing someone which i dont really want to do.

maybe ill just keep it together for another year and then put myself into therapy at uni so noone has to know and i avoid hurting those who care about me cause i do that enough already

♥ 271
→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

(Source: Spotify)

tags: mumm ra 

→ 29 May 12 at 10 am
tags: last personal post  sorry 

need to cut but also know i shouldnt. know ill regret it.
could just punch myself and blame the bruises on falling over when i was drunk

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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am
tags: watch as the world unfollows me now 

i wish i had a clear cut eating disorder where it was obvious that what was happening was me not eating and losing weight. where you could see the correlation between my actions and my weight
instead i binge purge restrict feel happy hate everything and plateau my life away


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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

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→ 29 May 12 at 10 am

blood-on-the-walls:

Enter a world of colorless beauty.

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